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I am so happy you are able to reclaim some of your new self and your space here. Space that waits for us is such a gift. I am here for all of it. The yama series, the bicycle victories, the parenting heartbreaks. I have June 7 popsicles ready to go for Friday. Hope it is not weird, but y’all are on my calendar because you are in my heart, and my heart is really bad at counting.

We have an adoption story in my family, and I was so focused on metal detectors and courtrooms, the joy and tears in that courtroom that day with the judge and other families expanding their hearts and lives that day caught me by surprise. We all made the world a little better that day, and you are doing the same every day for Z everyday. That’s pretty damn cool.

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thank you for this emily, it made me tear up. and it is not weird at all <3 i love love love that you'll be joining us for popsicles from afar

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💜

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I’m here for this virtual popsicle party!!!

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💜💜💜

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Oh my, yes! Every. Single. Word. And every single feeling. I have a very similar story!

My heart. My soul. My every being goes out to you and Z.

I remember adoption day for the two kiddos we were fortunate to keep, and still grieve the one who went to live with a relative. Keep your lines of communication open with other adoptive parents. You are in for a wild ride. One recommendation for when the dust settles....but I'll give that idea to you when the glow wears off in a bit.

I am always always here with you. No one should ever have to do this adoption thing alone.

Love, love, love to you and Z and all the extended family members. I am so happy for you.

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<3 thank you for your energy and kind words! love to feel so held by such a large circle of amazing people around us.

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Jun 5Liked by Billie Oh

Full of happy love for you and z and your whole family. What a joy.

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You are so amazing- so happy for you!

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<3 <3 <3

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Congratulations Billie to you and Z. Family officially! How beautiful.

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Sending so much love and healing your way. Such a joyous occasion for you and your family. Looking forward to Z updates!

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so so excited to get to share them, he is truly one of the coolest humans i've ever met

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Congratulations, I'm so happy for your all. It's not an easy road choosing parenthood, in all of the many ways we come to it.

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thank you paulette <3 was not a doorway i was expecting to walk through, and yet, sometimes it is the unexpected ones that are the doorway we most need to walk through

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Jun 4Liked by Billie Oh

Congratulations! What wonderful news! Sending so much love to you and Z and your family! ❤️

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<3 <3

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Congratulations!!!! So Happy for you & your family. Witnessing you with So Much love & understanding as I navigate a similar experience with my young nephew who we foster.

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oh, colleen <3 thank you. and thank you for sharing that! if you ever want to connect (on or offline) about any of your waves know i am always open to that. i know that having a few trusted people i could reach out to who were a bit ahead of me on their journey was truly so necessary and finding those people wasn't always easy

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♥️♥️♥️Thank You♥️♥️♥️ I so appreciate your offer. I am in a space of overwhelm right now. Your kindness means so much.

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of course!! come in and out of the space of overwhelm on a regular basis so i know the feeling well. and the offer is very genuine, my inbox (and phone) are always open

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I am so happy for all of you. Living in extended uncertainty is so tiring. Hoping you can all rest in the comfort of the kind of forever that's now yours.

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i think i didn't quite realize until very very recently how tiring it truly was--but feeling my body and heart and mind all come back a bit more toward center has felt amazing

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Rejoicing with all of you at this news. The best! 💙

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Jun 4Liked by Billie Oh

Sending so much love

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So happy for you and Z!

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Jun 4Liked by Billie Oh

Billie, you are brave and wise beyond your years with such a huge and compassionate heart. I so look forward to getting to know you both, on whatever terms you feel appropriate and comfortable. Words cannot express what parenthood is because is all about the feels. You’ve survived so many challenging ones already. It will be wonderful to celebrate the official nod on Friday, tho you became family long ago! Congratulations and enjoy the ride! I’m so happy for you all!! 💜🙏🏻💫

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thank you kathleen <3 it is in fact, all the feels. and a daily practice to remind myself that so many things can all be true all at once. feel very blessed and lucky to have such a supportive community here i'll be able to share and learn with through this journey

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Congratulations, Billie and Z!!

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“it was a portal into becoming i didn’t anticipate, and one i was not fully prepared for, and now, am just barely coming to the other side of.”

I love this line, Billie, and though I’m not a foster parent, I relate to it so much. And I *really* relate to that feeling of curtains parting so you can step forward to claim your voice.

Reading this post, I’m struck by the paradox that healthy attachment is essential for human development, yet keeping an eye on non-attachment is also essential for enduring the impermanence in our lives, and of life itself.

So happy for you, Z, Jeannine and all your family. ♥️

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